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I read somewhere about the old art of tattoo
in Japan
How some would have their whole body covered
with ink
even though they knew it would eventually kill them
because the pores of the skin have to be able to
breathe
and when you fill them all up like that you starve the
body of oxygen
and you slowly die.
And so they would die, and then they would be skinned
and their skin would be mounted and shown as a piece
of art on a wall.
When I sing all my favorite songs on a stage somewhere
there痴 gonna be songs I learned when I was a kid, and
there痴 gonna be new songs about people I knew when I
was a kid, and everything in between, like a diary,
like I知 reading my diary to you, and it gets a little
longer over time, and some of the old stuff becomes
more meaningful as the days go by and things happen,
and on a night like tonight I値l sing some old song
but it will suddenly surprise me with a brand new
meaning and it値l catch in my throat and I値l have to
try not to show it and try not to let my throat
tighten up and make my voice sound pinched and weird
and I値l just try to act natural and tell myself to
straighten up while I知 trying to relax my throat
muscles and think of something else even while I知
saying words that now mean a lot more than they did
the last time I sang them. Then the next night, it値l
still be strange and hard but a little less rocky and
then over time it値l just become a new tattoo, like a
piece of art that costs a lot and probably gets me a
little closer to the grave. And in the end, I guess
you can skin me and hang me on your wall, and at least
I will have made something of myself.....
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